IN HER EYES - Pointing In The Mirror

Anytime a person can describe in detail what they love most about being held in their lovers arms, it's safe to say that they think of them often. So why has her lover raise the question of infidelity so frequently? I noticed her eyes light up while  reminiscing about how safe she feels when held close and how soothing it is to hear her lover call her Bae. She recalls how joyful the children are when she is happy.  In her eyes all is well. Somehow the financial struggles and disappointments in life can be overcome. 

In her eyes, memories faded to red. Today she was accused of sleeping with her coworker. Earlier this week it was a friend and last week the neighbor. Each accusation preceded verbal abuse. Getting cursed out and  minimized to nothing became almost normal. Her eyes filled with pain and confusion as she described how it felt to hear him call her "worthless."  Just last night they made love. How could these words come from the one she loved so dearly? The emptiness left her longing for his attention, longing to be held again and called Bae.  

There was a strange knock at the door. She felt stomach sickness as she called his attention to the stranger who knew him by name. Suddenly, things became clearer. It was he who was unfaithful. I saw the rage in her eyes. 

IN HER EYES - The Suicide Note

The Suicide Note

In her eyes, I see the fear of being judged, ridiculed but worse of all is the fear of being misunderstood. She's standing dead center in chaos all in the name of love.  She's made a choice to keep her family together. Yet this single choice has commanded resistance from everyone who knows her story.   

In her eyes, I see a longing to feel his loving arms around her, providing  reassurance that everything is going to be alright. She is desperate to know that she has made the right choice and that her sacrifice is not in vain.  I hear the fear in her voice as she conjurers the courage to ask for help. 

Today she is fishing for the right words to explain the turn of events. He text-ed a suicide note to their closest friends explaining his feelings of betrayal after learning that she left him like a thief in the night. In confusion, she questioned her actions and his motives all at once.  She asked, Why would he involve our friends and upset them? Fighting back her tears, she looked at me with gripping regret. Crippled by fear of rejection from friends and family.

I see horror in her eyes as she contemplates returning home and expecting the worse. He has threatened to do harm to himself before she said. What if he was doing it again. Wait, I told her. First, report the suicide text messages to the police. Let them check on his safety since you fear he could be manipulating you to get you alone.  Police made contact and reported him to be ok. He achieved gaining sympathy from her support system of family and friends. In her eyes, she is the one who is betrayed.